| Today I am.... |
[Apr. 6th, 2002|07:30 pm] |
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| |  sad | ] |
Yesterday I was happy and today I am devoured by my own sadness....and I am despising every minute of it I know I led me here to this state of shadows and blindness god I hate it...him and his everything like a pile shit that is everywhere in different piles ... like I those days of lies .... lies beyond that 1/2 cent Santa... today I ate today I smiled today I cried today I peed today I said good bye....... |
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| spring break |
[Apr. 3rd, 2002|09:05 pm] |
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| |  horny | ] |
i just got back from la today i had a rough start but it got a lot better at the end... yesterday i hung out with mike...we went to santa monica and walked around went on a few rides...had lunch i smiled like i had not in a while it was a very good day!!! the ride back took hours i tried to sleep but i couldnt of well ...i had a nap it was a good nap.. |
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| good mornin' |
[Mar. 17th, 2002|09:11 am] |
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| |  mellow | ] |
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| | savior Red HOt Chili Peppers | ] |
this morning i find my self stressing on graduation and its requirements that i have not fulfilled :( we finally got the net back after moving from house to house and to think that we are moving again ahhhin june.....
yeasterday i went to the good ol city of OB (ocean beach) and had a great time alone...i took the bus there it took about 1 3o min then i went to get my hair done with Kai i love her while i was there i found my self setting by this one very atractive guy called or named ramsey from the san diego band soulcracker he was really nice he was getting his hair done with Kai too....he was really nice we talked about the band and stuff they had a show last night at winstions 21+ sucked oh well....after i was done with that i went to get something to eat it was like 4.20 and i had not had anything to eat all day long....so i went to Theo's and had a slice of there good pizza then i went to the beach it was amazing the wind seemed to be saying hello the waves were dancing with joy that made me happy too...after being there i while i walked around newport went all the shops that i like and then went to starcrafts i sat there and browsed through some books and talked to molly i was there for a while then i decided to go home was about 6 i did not make it home till 8 15 it was i nice long ride from bus to train to bus again and then a 25 min walk ....it was all worth it though because i love ob |
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| so today i hate yesterday |
[Feb. 25th, 2002|08:25 pm] |
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| | judith | ] |
yes i surely do
hahaha when things were dandy i was dandy now things are crapy and i still try to be like candy but with a starnge bitterness and and and and and and
yeah adios |
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| LA |
[Jan. 26th, 2002|04:43 pm] |
so this is the city that i love la the smell of it makes me happy i am here with sharlyne and her bfs family its been ok so far....anyhow the on thursday i meet dixie it went really good i saw somethings ....today i have no clue what i well do i hope i have fun though you know
later |
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[Dec. 19th, 2001|10:16 am] |
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| |  grateful | ] |
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| | tiny dancer Elton John | ] |
in my mind eyes ears hair body teeth toes and in my everything i am sorrounded by wonder... couristy...this is just one of those days that i feel like i am 13 ll over agian...makes me think that i have gotten nowhere...while i am writing up in here i am reading my emails...i got one from sister alex...i love how she brings me a smile of hope...i thank the goddess each day for bringing such a loving sister to my life..:)in reltaion to my past i am getting up slowly but surely... christmas is coming along and i have not bought anything at all for anybody...last night as my eyes were closing and i was drifting into a parallel universe of sleep and dreams...i heard a song a song of my state california ... and with those words of reality i let go and drift and slowly descend to a moment of peace far from the truth .... |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 14th, 2001|01:54 pm] |
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| |  artistic | ] |
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| | sweet emotion ..... | ] |
Yes i most surly need to i need $$$ i did not work much this week...yesterday...i went over to clarks after school i hung out with a friend of ruby's i miss her....anyhow it was fun then i went to this band winter concert show it was very incredibale seeing the dedication they all shared the dedecation to playing music...my 18 th birthday is comming soon i seem to be the only onw who gives a shit....anyhow...on the brighter side of things i am adult by law that is...its so cold right now outside...my room is missing things cause we are moving it sucks but oh well.... today i have overwellming artistic visions its not like i am high or anything i just do
adios
Forgive my spelling |
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| With the light of today |
[Dec. 11th, 2001|11:01 pm] |
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| |  worried | ] |
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| | what i got sublime | ] |
so today i am questioning my being sanity beauty honesty love prosperty love to nature....me as well as the others that i feel have vanished to threads in my heart ...love i can surly say tuched my soal i dread knowing that it well not come back these tears i fear like scares that keep on bleeding they wont stop they are in and out....white and black....the thing that brings me a smile is my black companion cat Hex he makes me smile in dark and light....the thoughts of leaving this place bring me dreams that i know have the ability to come true...i am breathing smiling...crying...i am alive but in my heart i am dead cold .... i am tormented by fear and sadnees and hope that gives me light....the goddess is with me this i know in this time of tears ...i feel her in me and i know light well shine
I love you!!! |
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| back to school |
[Nov. 26th, 2001|01:18 pm] |
after one week off of work and work i find my self back at school...and seeing reasons for not wanting to come back but any how its one think i have to cope with....anyhow...yule is comming up
more later |
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| Dear Journal....blah blah |
[Nov. 13th, 2001|08:12 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | green day she | ] |
So as I am typing right now my hands look nice I just got out of the shower and hex is looking at me type. oh yeah I do have cloths on...he is look at me as he is sitting on the top of the screen...
some how today I feel older today I feel like I have a pair of new eyes weird huh..but that is how I feel its kinda a scary feeling but I like it....
I am scared that my friend is going to leave me I am really scared of that feeling the feeling of not having him around...because I really care about him I hope you are reading this...anyhow what good will this be....?
I got my classes for next semester today and I took the asvab....Clark took it to he stole the pencels!!!!!hhahaha oh yeah and he would spit on the carpet its GROSS ok .... |
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| Oh Lord Today..... |
[Nov. 12th, 2001|09:14 pm] |
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| | artistic | ] |
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| | What I Got Sublime | ] |
Today I go up early and went on a walkabout......mom then told me to go out with her so I did we went to look at homes since 8 30 till 5 or 6 PM it was a long day she says she wants to split up with my dad .... I don't know they have said this before they just both put me in sharlyne in middle I hate that....I like the idea of it...my parents splitting up ....it hurts though I hate seeing them fighting more....I ll be 18 soon.....I gave my mom my friends # I hope she does what I told her too do ... if not I don't know I am ok though....my dad is going crazy....so and so am I in a way but I still am keeping my sanity :) whatever that is ......I got a new e-mail address today and got rid of my old AOL one for reason that yeah....its YemayaChild132@aol.com so write it down GOT IT...
talk later
Sharon |
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| HEX is BACK!!!!!:) |
[Nov. 11th, 2001|10:41 pm] |
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| | scared | ] |
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| | whats my age agian blink 182 | ] |
From weekend stay in Mexico....I got him back from TJ slums thank god he was ok
write more later...I am doing ok ....today at my Nice party I had fun I was jumping with 5 and 6 year old on the astro jump I don't care I may be 18 soon must jumping is still fun...so my sis was like how old are you???...anyhow it was funny....so pretty much I need fucking job again...it will come up in line.....I hope so....take care everyone :)
Sharon |
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| At least I know I have a friend |
[Nov. 11th, 2001|12:57 am] |
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| | Sad/Happy/loved | ] |
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| | november rain guns and roses | ] |
So hex got out and got stolen some girl called this morning from Mexico and said she found him in a tree I miss him so much I cant stop crying why did someone get him I miss him.....I miss seeing him in the middle of the night watching me sleep :) I really want him back...I hope they call again....and with the other issue in my life some how I am just 'hanging in there" :) and I know it will work out some way or another if there are no lies... I cant sleep I hate this I used to talk to hex now I have nothing...I hate seeing his bed and his food bowl and stuff....but when I think of these past few 2 days I get happy:)....my parents seem to be not as bad as they were this morning....my sister god I don't wanna go there she really did it with this one...at least I have something to be happy about right? I ill talk or write more to you guys soon...miss you
love,
Sharon |
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| yesterday |
[Nov. 9th, 2001|12:08 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
a day I will never forget it gave me a smile that will never fade for sure...:) |
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| The Beauty in Having Nothing |
[Nov. 7th, 2001|12:18 pm] |
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| |  drained | ] |
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| | "My Friends" Red Hot Chili Peppers | ] |
So with the word of good morning i arose to the sunlight glaring on me with no fuss i got up at 5 45...i did the usual get ready for a new day after what had happened the day before...i said good bye to that day and started a new one...anyhow....with the day of 18 coming i have mixed feelings of joy and fear...my father keeps saying those lines of you are going no where and that you are worthless and nothing...Oh golly well i just cant wait to prove him wrong...: ) Well ... its Wed. OB Day i dont think i ll make it down there today... i really want to go there though I ll see what happens...i need $$$$$ write more later...
Sharon |
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| So today |
[Nov. 5th, 2001|01:14 pm] |
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| | horny | ] |
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| | Sir Psyhco Sexy Red Hot Chili Peppers | ] |
....was better then Friday I am at school and doing my thing...Today i am going home and resting and ill try to get in the shower again, Hex shited on the bed it was so &@#$ing gross i got up and took a shower like 5 times with anti bacteria stuff.... i still smell it on me everywhere...i feel like today is flowing like a daze or something....i am in ROP class right now Evan feels bummed cause of his knee...:(....i have to do this spell for someone today so i have to get my mind cleared up for it tonight hopefully Hex will wanna help out...
write Later,
Sharon |
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| Well the... |
[Nov. 4th, 2001|10:01 pm] |
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| | mellow | ] |
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| | Dazed and Confused By Led Zepplin | ] |
the weekend is over and Monday is coming in a few hours....time sure goes by when your having fun hahah yeah right this weekend was ok.... I slept a lot with Hex....
later
Sharon |
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| today is the great day that i hope not to live for |
[Nov. 2nd, 2001|12:32 pm] |
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| | lonely | ] |
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| | RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS soul to squezz | ] |
...i go home and sleep every day just to get away and at night i wake up every night to think and talk to hex i wonder if he knows what is going on....who knows i dont even know what is going on with me...ahhh anyhow Today is anthony kiedis is birthday....he is getting older and so am i but the older i seem to get, the dumber i seem to be getting.... |
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| This is my first time!!! |
[Oct. 31st, 2001|12:45 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | ecstatic | ] |
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| | 'dammit' blink 182 | ] |
So to day is Samhain or Halloween as it is better known so today at mid night there was a earthquake its was so amazing to me the floor moving in such a way....so yeah ill let you know what goes on today
adios |
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